Taz application [RETIRED]

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Name: Taz
Age: Adult
Gender: Male
Height: 31"
Weight:  80 lbs
Build: Small, Sturdy, Thick

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Chandor
Family: N/A
Task: N/A

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Personality:

Protective/Brave: Taz learned at a young age to fight his own battles, and not let anyone interfere. Fearing to risk embarrassment due to his insecurities, he can never let himself ask for help or guidance, and is stubborn to learn on his own. This mind-set has distanced himself from other wolves, and builds walls around him when others try to connect with him.

Insecure/Indecisive: Taz has never been comfortable with himself. As a loner, he met opportunities to join packs before settling in Blutwald, but never checked into them because of his Indecisiveness. He knew he didn't want to live life on his own, but on the other hand, he did not want to live a life where he was controlled. Being in Blutwald, he knew he had misjudged pack-life, but even now he is unsure if he has made the right decision. There are always thoughts in his mind where maybe his life would be better elsewhere. Taz does not know what he wants.

Introverted: Taz had very little social skills while growing up as a loner, so he would casually come off as withdrawn to others, and he was for a while. He wished that he did not keep to himself. He envied those that had better luck with being social than him. He always found it easier to keep in the shadows and be ignored, though when he does meet someone, there is always something in his brain that wants him to strike conversation first, but it is rarely that he does.

Visceral: While Taz keeps to himself most of the time, he acts upon emotions more-so than logic. He can be brave but bold as well, and that can sometimes get him into fights that he did not want to have. As a loner, he never cleverly got himself out of a fight, he just flung himself in it without thinking. It led to many bloody battles that he managed to retreat from unscathed, though one left some scars.


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Pre-Group History:


Taz spent most of his young puppy life walking and stumbling around after his mother. His one-year old mother, Mona, was bringing him and his two other siblings on a "trip", at least that is what Mona would say. During hot, cold and wet nights, she would reassure Taz and his siblings, Mima and Sam, that they were getting closer to a home of their own. Unfortunately, Mima and Sam never made the trip with Taz and his mother. Taz didn't understand what had happened, nor could he feel remorse for his siblings' deaths. However, he would comfort his mother as she would grieve for the two of them.

Taz was by his mother's side until he became six months old. At that age, he wanted to find out answers. He would ask why they had traveled for so long, who his father was, why they were not in a pack.....but Mona would only smile and say, "I'll tell you when you are older". However, Taz was impatient. This hunger for answers would only stick in his mind, day and night. He planned on leaving, until his mother got herself injured while hunting. Taz knew he couldn't leave her then when she needed him. He learned quickly how to hunt for two, and without saying a word, he enjoyed it. It seemed like it was easy and that he could stand on his own four legs.

After one morning, when Taz noticed his mother walking on her healed paw, he decided it was time to leave. He didn't want to tell her, wanting to avoid seeing a sorrowful look on her face, or having a long argument, so he left without a single goodbye. Taz never looked back, and would disappear almost instantly in the dense woods, all throughout the seasons.

Taz never associated with any pack members, but he would get in quarrels with small little groups of wolves over a  scrap of meat. Hunting didn't come easy his first year of independence. He would get really thin during the winter, and it usually stayed that way throughout the year. it affected his strength, and would nearly get himself killed during fights with bigger wolves.

It was a rough life for a while, but Taz slowly managed to piece things together, little by little. That was suddenly cut off when he ran into a familiar scent he only recognized as a young pup. He came across this pack of wolves, one being his father. His father's name was Fell, and he was the Alpha of the pack. They recognized each other almost immediately, and it was very awkward silence between Taz and the pack. Fell was thrilled that his son had survived and had returned to him, but his mate, Chika, was not.

Chika and Fell had a young daughter named Yuna. Yuna and Chika hated Taz on the spot. Together, they would plot against Taz and try to kick him out of the pack, or even killed. Yuna didn't hate Taz because her mother did, but she hated him for stealing away her father's love, blaming him that Fell didn't love her. Slowly, Taz began to piece his story together. He found out why his mother left with him and his siblings, and why Chika hated him. Fell told Taz almost everything, he didn't want to keep secrets from him. He was determined to keep Taz in his pack, and lure Mona back too.

One day, in the harsh winter morning, Chika got in an argument with Fell about how Taz received a higher rank than Yuna. She told her mate that Taz was an abomination and didn't deserve to be in their pack. Fell suddenly lunged at Chika, biting and scratching her. He stopped to tell Yuna and Fell to leave. When they did, the beatings continued.

Yuna was grief-stricken. She thought she would lose her mother, but even when Chika returned alive, she still looked lifeless. Chika stopped caring for her newborn puppies, so Yuna had to take care of them. Fell had also changed, becoming more strict and reserved. Taz, seeing his Step-sister take on some harsh, new responsibilities, felt more compassionate towards her. Taz would start to lay beside her as she slept, and be fluffy pillow for her head sometimes. Yuna and Taz become friends, and went almost anywhere together.

However, Taz became unhappy. He wanted to go back on his own again, without a pack. This time, he talked to another wolf about it. Yuna. She didn't want him to leave, and tried to convince him to stay. She even thought of leaving with him, but Taz told her that her siblings needed her, so Yuna stayed as Taz left. His father was less persuasive. Fell tried his hardest, but Taz couldn't help but feel the urge to leave his blood pack. He did not feel comfortable anymore. Fell finally gave up, but told Taz to give Mona the news that Chika was no longer Alpha female, and she could come back now.

Taz nodded, but didn't want to do him any favors.

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Group History: - During his years as a loner, he had met many friendly, fellow loner faces, as well as pack wolf faces. He had met with Stallion long before he discovered Mona. The two had talked together about an uprising in Blutwald, before Rowan's death. Taz had accepted Sallion's offer to help in the plan, but he never returned. Months later, Taz and a good friend of his, Impala, a wolf from Kausen, figured out Mona was his mother and urged him to meet her. After thinking hard about it, he decided it was time to face her. The reunion was not what he thought. No matter what he said, Mona forgave him for leaving her, for not coming back for so long, for everything. The love was overwhelming, and he felt too welcome in Kausen. Taz felt he didn't deserve it.

After meeting up with an old acquaintance, Judith, he decided he wanted to move to Blutwald, a pack he had been thinking of moving to a short time ago. Saying goodbye to his friends and mother from Kausen, he and Judith set out to pay Alpha Stallion a visit. They were stopped by a brutish wolf named Ivan, who attempted to murder them. However, Judith and Taz managed to flee in time, Taz earning himself a few ugly gashes on his face.

Despite the encounter, they managed to find Stallion, who accepted the two loners in after hearing of what they encountered on their journey.

After spending a lot of time in Blutwald, he has only grown more insecure and timid. The grounds he walked on told stories of bloodshed and rivalries. The pack grounds had a sickness, and that sickness was getting to him. He tried making friends, but the friends he made slowly vanished without a trace. As much as he wanted to run away, he felt bound to the pack leader, Winema, who needed as much help as she could get.

It wasn't until his uncle Rex, who he had not planned on seeing a second time, told him that his father and step-mother had split away from the pack, did a seed of anxiety grow in his heart. The more days that passed, the more worried he had become. One day, he just couldn't take it anymore, and ran to Kausen to see if his mother was alright.

Before he could get too far into Kausen,  he ran into Impala, an old friend. They had started small talk, when suddenly, Taz had anxiety attack. He apologized to Impala before bolting out of the territory to hide his shame and tears. He had never cried his heart out before, and it lifted a weight above him. 

He traveled back to Blutwald, only to find it had disbanded without him. Confused, he had no idea where to go. He could always return to being a loner, but he was so tired and exhausted, he couldn't imagine being on his own again. He couldn't make another mistake, joining a random, distant pack like Blutwald. No matter how much he felt Kausen, or Chandor, was too good for him, he was tired of running away. His mother missed him, and it was time for him to come home...

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